Blushing Phoenix
From The Ashes is where vulnerability meets power — and shame becomes your turning point.
Hosted by April Poynter, this podcast and YouTube channel exists at the intersection of deep sensitivity and unshakable strength.
It was born from April’s own journey with chronic blushing and erythrophobia (the fear of turning red in front of others), a physical response that once felt like a curse, but became the gateway to healing, growth, and radical self-trust.
The blush symbolizes the quiet pain of self-betrayal - the years spent hiding, people-pleasing, and shrinking in relationships, work, and identity.
The phoenix represents what happens when you stop running from yourself and begin to rise - bolder, freer, louder, and more aligned.
Blushing Phoenix is for the person who feels everything deeply, who has silenced themselves to fit in, and who is now ready to live louder without abandoning their softness.
Through raw stories, spiritual insights, and real conversations, April guides you to reclaim your voice, reconnect with your body, and rise from the ashes of who you were told to be.
Alchemize fear into fire.
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Episodes
64 episodes
HRT, Hot Flashes, and Blushing - What's Actually Going On?
**FREE SOCIAL GATHERING SURVIVAL GUIDE: https://payhip.com/b/OZ2Yr**FREE DOWNLOAD - Understanding Erythrophobia: Reframing How We View Blushing: https://payhip.com/BlushingPhoenix**You can join our community & monthly ...
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Remind Yourself Of This If You're Feeling Stuck
**FREE SOCIAL GATHERING SURVIVAL GUIDE: https://payhip.com/b/OZ2Yr**FREE DOWNLOAD - Understanding Erythrophobia: Reframing How We View Blushing: https://payhip.com/BlushingPhoenix**You can join our community & monthly ...
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Avoiding The Discomfort Is Making You Suffer
**FREE SOCIAL GATHERING SURVIVAL GUIDE: https://payhip.com/b/OZ2YrWe’ve been sold a lie that confidence means being comfortable all the time. It doesn’t. Life guarantees pain – avoiding it is what creates the suffering.In this video...
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How to Be Confident Even If You Blush
**FREE SOCIAL GATHERING SURVIVAL GUIDE: https://payhip.com/b/OZ2YrBlushing doesn’t disqualify you from confidence. In this video, I’m breaking down why confidence has nothing to do with the color of your face and everything to do with s...
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Sympathy Blushing: When You See Someone Else Turn Red & You start To Flush
*FREE SOCIAL GATHERING SURVIVAL GUIDE* https://payhip.com/b/OZ2YrIf you’ve ever flushed the second someone else starts turning red, you’re not crazy and you’re definitely not alone. This video breaks down sympathy blushing, why your ner...
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Sun Allergy Symptoms Explained
**FREE SOCIAL GATHERING SURVIVAL GUIDE** https://payhip.com/b/OZ2YrIf you get red, blotchy, or patchy skin the second you step into the sun or move from cold to warm air, you’re not imagining it. In this video, I break down why some of ...
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Why Authority Makes You Blush (and How to Break the Cycle)
**FREE SOCIAL GATHERING SURVIVAL GUIDE** https://payhip.com/b/OZ2YrAuthority can be one of the biggest triggers for blushing, freezing, or shrinking. In this video, I’m breaking down why authority figures activate your fight-or-flight r...
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Could Blushing or Hives Be Linked to Your Hormones? Understanding Progesterone Dermatitis
Have you ever noticed your face flushing, breaking out in hives, or turning red right before your period? It might not just be stress or anxiety — your hormones could be involved.In this video, I’m sharing what I recently learned about ...
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Cognitive Dissonance & Blushing: When You Know You’re Meant for More but Keep Hiding
Have you ever known you were made for more — to speak, to shine, to be seen — but still found yourself shrinking the moment attention turned your way because of blushing?That tug-of-war inside you is called cognitive dissonance....
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From Hiding to Healing: WHY I Started Talking About Blushing & HOW It Helps
Six years ago, I was thriving in my corporate career—but secretly battling erythrophobia, the fear of blushing. My husband knew. No one else did. The first time I ever told someone was on an airplane, mid-flight, when I finally opened up to a c...
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What Actually Happens When You Blush (and How to Stop the Spiral)
Have you ever felt that sudden rush of heat in your face — like your body is betraying you?In this episode, I'm breaking down what’s actually happening when you blush, why it’s connected to your adrenal response, and how to return to a ...
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6 Years Later: My Erythrophobia Journey & What I’ve Learned About Blushing - AND HEALING
It’s been six years since I started Blushing Phoenix — a channel that began with my desperate search for answers about chronic blushing and erythrophobia (the fear of blushing or turning red in front of others). Back in November 20...
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When Sorry Isn't Enough
When my daughter was little, she watched a cartoon called Wonder Pets. In the Christmas episode, Ming-Ming breaks Tuck’s snow globe and says she’s sorry — but Tuck’s response stuck with me: “Sorry won’t fix it.”That line hit deeper than...
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It’s Time to Say Goodbye to Pandemic You
What if the version of you that’s been holding you back isn’t your “inner child” - but an older version that learned to survive a certain season?For me, it wasn’t 8-year-old April… it was 35-year-old pandemic April.She helped me cop...
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What Got You Here - Won't Get You There
Sometimes the resistance we feel isn’t about the circumstances around us – it’s about the version of ourselves we’re still living from.In this video, I share how I realized that parts of me – 8-year-old April, 35-year-old April – were s...
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Most People Won't Do It ... But Maybe You Will.
Sometimes the dream feels heavy. You’re doing the work, but nobody’s clapping, nobody’s noticing. Or you haven't even started. You're plagued with ideas and vision and you feel the pressure of running out of time. Other times, the ...
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Friend-Ventory: Outgrowing People Without the Guilt
Are your friendships helping you grow — or holding you back?In this video, I share what I call a “Friendventory” — an honest look at the people in your circle and whether they truly support the life you’re building. We’ll talk about:
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Stop Shrinking for Authority - Reclaim Your Power
We’ve all been taught to shrink in the presence of authority - at the doctor’s office, at work, or around leaders - without even realizing it. In this video, I explore how conditioning shaped these patterns, why our nervous system ...
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The Hidden Power of Environment on Your Behavior & Your Energy
Sometimes it’s not you - it’s the environment you’re in. I just watched my son Ax move from one classroom to another, and instantly his entire attitude about school shifted. No more fights, no resistance… he actually wanted to go.&...
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When ‘Perfect’ Becomes a Problem: Breaking Free from Performance-Based Worth
We’re conditioned from childhood to believe our worth is tied to how perfectly we perform - at the doctor, at work, or in life. In this video, I share how a simple blood pressure reading in 2011 sent me spiraling, and what I’ve learned si...
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Fawning 101: Recognizing It & Breaking Free
For years, my go-to trauma response wasn’t fight, flight, or freeze - it was fawning. I said yes when I wanted to say no, over-apologized, and put everyone’s comfort before my own. In this video, I share how I recognized my fawning ...
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Red Hair Realizations: The Exhausting Upkeep **This is not about hair** Kinda. Sorta.
Red hair is high-maintenance - and honestly, so is trying to be someone you’re not. In this video, I share a moment of clarity while deciding to let go of my bold hair color and realizing how much energy I’ve been putting into appe...
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Scared Is a Starting Point, Not a Stop Sign
You won’t think your way out of fear. You have to move your way through it.In this episode of Amplify with April, I talk about how your nervous system builds resilience through repetition. You won’t feel confident at first ...
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